of wanting to move on

its been almost 2 months...since we broke up. 

today, i am partly sad, angry, relieved, happy, at peace, indifferent. i guess it depends on which side of the bed i wake up for the day.

although generally, im great most days knowing that this is a choice i made. but there are days when i still wonder, is this part of a bigger plan?is this how its really meant to be?

i guess it has been a habit of mine to wait and see and in most cases not to let things go too easily (for they may be just lost for now but eventually will be back), it's not a very good habit i might say.

for while looking back may be good, most of the time though, we may miss the good opportunity that is right in front of us.

there's a window of opportunity knocking now...but i'm afraid to answer. because i dont really know what will happen next should i take the leap. so many what ifs.

but then again...what if?