damaged

i was happily making my way to RCBC Plaza for the Unicef volunteers' meeting when i noticed that my phone was vibrating. it kept on shaking and shaking for a couple of minutes. i was trying hard to ignore it since i was still on the MRT and i didn't want to give any snatchers around, the chance to get my beloved phone.

once i got off the train, i immediately went to the bathroom to look at my phone...

2 missed calls from dad

1 text message from tin.

that's strange. why would dad be calling me so early in the morning? and a text message from tin?!? the gods must be crazy!!! she hates texting me 'cause i don't reply and she's so stingy... this must be BIG!

i hurriedly opened my inbox to read the message. it said: "Ate, nagdradrama si tooot! (censored!). Mamaya ko na kwento. Sbi ni tooot! (censored! ulit) bilan natin ng flowers. Ikaw muna magbayad. Na-greet mo na ba siya?"

i replied "Ok. sige. later. Nag-iwan ako ng card kagabi sa ilalim ng pinto"

i forgot about it for a while and concentrated on getting to our meeting place. i was running late. we had to move to another venue since we couldn't stay that long at EAT!. i met new friends (jean --who is a marketing student at DLSU and my partner at the pre-reg booth before i realized that i was already signed up for another assignment, remy --a cartoonist or designer who seems pretty quiet but cheerful, and kirby --a recent comm graduate from ateneo who graciously dropped me off at glorietta. thanks! i saved 10 bucks on bus fare.)

arriving at Glorietta, i immediately asked Manong Guard for information as to where the flower shops were located. i wanted to text the Makati people i knew but i had less than P40 load which i could appropriate for more important uses. He told me that there were flower shops at G4. i walked briskly...no! ran actually, since the meeting ended late and i was really hungry and i wanted to save money thus i had to get home as fast as i could to satisfy my hunger.

i almost dropped my panties when i asked the salesperson how much the bouquets were. imagine?!? P350 for one piece of stargazer!?! (this happens to be my favorite flower). they don't even last forever! but then, what does? this is gonna cost us...BIG TIME!!! i only had less than P200 with me. good thing my stupid ATM card is accepted at PNB's ATM machine which is found way too far from glorietta. as if i had a choice. i really hate my ATM card! (at least i am discouraged from withdrawing money. haha)

on the way to the ATM machine, i passed by SM and to my surprise, they were selling flowers for much cheaper prices! just my luck! i guess it was a blessing that i had to go to the ATM machine. plus the saleslady was very kind and offered to put a nice ribbon on the bouquet. smiling really does wonders!

i rushed to catch the next train and ran when i got off at cubao. i walked slowly when i got off our corner. i was too exhausted and hungry. plus i felt like a fried egg. crispy on the edges!

just as i opened the gate, i saw our cousin and tita coming out of our house. i thought they were only visiting. it turns out that my dad called my tita and sent her the text messages that tooot! sent. everybody's quite bewildered why this "real-life drama" is happening. nobody knows exactly the reason why. i can only speculate. everybody has his/her interpretation.

sometimes, i wish i could read people's minds...so i could get into yours. you have been my fascination and frustration ever since i started to learn how to think. maybe its age gap. maybe its ___-life crisis. maybe its a product of my very creative imagination. maybe you are crazy. maybe its just me.

for what its worth...i love you. even if it doesn't feel like love to you. hope you had your peace today. even if it meant shutting us all out.