leafing over

it's quite early for assessing how the past year has been but you know how they always say in tv or in stuff you read how certain people impact aspects of your life? i've been observing myself the past months and these little changes that i have been undergoing which i will credit to chubbykins/skip/pitt.

for one thing, i'm less stressed over little things. chubby has this way of ALWAYS looking at the bright side of things. i'm not kidding. the guy is way too positive! hihihi. which is doing wonders for the both of us. imagine, we've almost been a year together (11 months and counting!) and we haven't even had a fight. :O and whenever i feel pressured at work, he always manages to cheer me up.

i'm becoming more appreciative of the little things. this is something that i haven't been practicing since i've started working in the corporate world aka capitalist environment (remember, i spent almost half a year in a school and more than a year in an NGO). somehow i've lost touch of this side of me but it's all coming back now...

i've become more understanding and more mindful of other people. pre-chubbykins period, i was mainly concerned with myself and my life and not really on how connected i am through my actions (plus the consequences of my actions) to other people.

i've become more balanced in the sense that i don't look too far ahead in the future and let myself enjoy being in the here and now (as sir jim always taught us in comm class). as opposed to my usual way overplanning and getting depressed when things don't go my way. i'm learning to become more flexible.

i'm learning to communicate my feelings more. unlike before when i just walk-off or shrug-off the issue because i don't want to talk about it because i feel like my opinion doesn't even matter. he always tries to hear my side and voice out his.

saying sorry. for the longest time this is one of the hardest things for me to do. it has become a part of life. something that i dont just mumble for the sake of saying it. but really mean it when i do. and doing it immediately and not when its too late that you've lost your connection to that person.

on a physical note, my lifelong target of achieving that i-need-to-gain-10-pounds-this-year has been reached early on. my new goal is how to get it off. heehee. :p

i'm less obsessed with looking "sexy". i feel loved in whatever form or shape that i may be in. i am confident that my chubby will not drop me like a hot tamale just at the sight of an equally alluring (uhuy, ang feeling) woman.


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thanks chubbykins. thank you for showing me how to be a "beautiful" person. :) i always like learning from you because i know i just don't hear it from you. but you show me through example. i love you.