it is so hard to be constantly optimistic of things, especially if everything is going downhill. and the people surrounding you are surely not helping by shouting at each other and pointing fingers. and much worse, you are with them doing the same thing.
i hate being in this position. you either suck it up to pesky, annoying what nots or get a bad rep for trying to defend what is right and also yourself.
note: i hate you E! you think you can scare me by including a fake lawyer in the email loop just to get out of paying?! shame on you for stooping down so low! btw, you did but not until i researched and found his real email. :p that's for you! now you wait for my revenge!
staying positive most of the time is definitely one resolution that is extremely hard to keep. definitely harder than my resolution to be on time (which so far im doing quite good...no lates since monday! whopee!)
---------- i pity L who is at the brink of a breakdown trying to fend of enemies from all sides, more like departments. it is like watching action scenes from 300, only no blood is spilt. (i just watched trailers. haven't really had the time to watch movies since i don't know) but they are definitely dining in hell. i'd better get off work as early as possible. don't want to witness too much violence in one day.
this holy week was supposed to be a break of sorts. from work, stressful personal life, non-existent social life, negative vibes slash negative people who induce negative vibes and whole lot of other things that have been currently occupying my "free" time.
but instead of having a break, i've been mulling over a lot of things without meaning to. i've realized that i have not been making time for things that i want to do or people who mean the whole world to me. i've become this robot who lives for work alone and nothing else.
i've missed blogging, taking pictures, catching up with friends and family, books, window-shopping, people-watching, hanging-out, spending time with him, conversing with God, etc. i am such a loser.