xie xie!

sa mga taong tumulong at nagtiwala sa akin...

LUBOS NA PASASALAMAT!!! Ü

kilala niyo kung sino kayo...
hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupulutin kung wala kayo...
malamang nasiraan na ako ng bait...
basta kapag kailangan nyo rin ng tulong, nandito lang ako! Ü

mingkamas at malong

...migarilyas at mani....

its funny how the children at Hospicio de San Jose sing "Bahay Kubo". actually they are all very amusing when they sing any song. somehow, even if they don't get the lyrics right or sound "ngo-ngo", there's something in their voices that uplifts one's spirits.

i went there this afternoon to give out toys. it is always fun to play with or just spend time with children. over-all it was fantabulous! some of the kids are rowdy, some adorable, and only few were quiet and shy. they were all fascinated with the different toys.

i wanted to hug them all at once. they looked like they needed my tender loving care! i cannot imagine how a mother could ever leave her child. but then, i also understand that a lot of these children's parents cannot even get enough resources to feed themselves which leaves them with no other option.

if only more people took the time...what a better world ours could be.

sulit na sulit

i'm so happy. i formally accepted the job offer and i was quite surprised to receive such a good fortune. it was worth the wait and the countless tests, interviews, trainings, etc that i had to go through before finding the "right" one for me.

i'm so excited! i can't wait for monday! i hope everything turns out as expected... or even better!

thank you talaga God! super! kala ko masisiraan na ako eh.

not wasting the pretty

grabe! na-enlighten ako sa pagbabasa ko ng he's just not that into you: the no excuse truth to understanding guys by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo.

super helpful! never will i lower my standards or make excuses for any guy. kung gusto nya ako eh di gumawa siya ng paraan. tama naman talaga eh. kahit ako ay isang empowered woman at diyosa, it doesn't mean na i will make the move. i deserve so much! swerte siya kapag nakuha niya ako kaya dapat lang paghirapan! wahaha!

buti na lang marami akong natutunan na lessons. i will no longer waste time. hahaha! yehey! wala lang. masaya lang ako. hehe.

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thanks to andrea for lending me the book!

my power color

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest:

You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.

At Your Lowest:

You feel in a slump and lack creativity.

In Love:

You tend to be many people's ideal partner.

How You're Attractive:

You make people feel confident and accepted.

Your Eternal Question:

"What Impression Am I Giving?"

lucky me!

two interviews in one day!

great news.

looks like i'll start working soon!

*wink wink*

diyosa thought for the day

"Nothing makes a woman more beautiful than the belief that she is beautiful."
-Sophia Loren

iisa lang ang ibig sabihin nito...DIYOSA AKO!!!

we are not coffee bean happers!


the sassy girls with acky
i can't say that my term as hostess for the night surpassed andrea's reign but this month's overnight was definitely memorable. not just because we had fun but something funny happened. somebody almost got picked-up! hahaha. naks! hot momma! woohoo!
what is it with coffee shops in our area?! i don't want to go into details but we had a similar incident with the one i had related in a previous blog entry. (refer to "death by carwash" feb 12 entry)
can't wait for the next overnight!

ang apat na Maria


Martin sisters with sheena
Clockwise from left: connie bonnie, kattie battie, me, teeny weeny and sheens

yehey! first time namin magkaron ng picture na kumpleto kaming apat na babaeng magkakapatid. Lagi kasing may hindi sasama sa picture dahil feeling nya pangit siya for that particular moment or wala siya sa mood. hehe.

once in a blue moon

this is weird.

three generations in one car.

it feels awkward but right at the same time.

i wish this happens more often.

this is how i envision "us" to be.

sundo...


habang naghihintay sa may pedro gil...
kakainis.
kita pala yung car sticker pati yung dashboard.

better than chocolate

this is the title of the book i read at powerbooks while waiting for my sister. it showed 50 ways on how to be a happy person incorporating different ideas from different philosopies. since i always want to be happy, i tried to memorize all of them. this can also be handy when trying to cheer up other people.

the ideas i remember best are:

kiss someone!
hahaha. after reading this line, i looked over my shoulder to see if the guy behind me was cute enough to kiss. i could always say, i was just following what the book said. hehe. unfortunately, he wasn't. i deemed it would be better for me to kiss a frog and hope it will become a prince. oh well...this just wasn't my lucky day!

visualize!
imagine happy memories! things or activities that make you happy! imagine the people that make you happy or make you feel great! and you will instantly feel happy!

list down activities that make you happy and make it a point to schedule one happy activity a day.
what a great idea! that way, there is no reason for you to feel down on any day because there is always something to look forward to. i started doing this today!

don't let money get in the way!
as they say, the best things in life are free! don't let financial matters cloud your day.

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there are so many other great ideas but i can't write them all down since i can't remember them all. hehe. plus, the author might press charges on me for printing without permission. if you want more ideas, just go to the nearest powerbooks branch and look for the book.

i was hoping to buy it but decided against it the last minute since it cost over Php700. if somebody is kind enough to give it too me as a gift, it would really make my day! *hint hint* make me happy!

this is why oldies should take classes on technology...

yesterday, while i was sitting inside my car, thinking of where to park next (refer to previous post for the reason) when my mobile rang. it was someone i didn't know.

stranger: elo? por por siro payb ba ito?
me: ay hindi po! wrong number.
stranger: sorry.

after a few minutes, my phone rang again!

stranger: elo? por por siro payb ba ito?
me: (sensing that this was the same person) hindi po. four four two four four zero five po ito. (hehe. hindi papatalbog.)
stranger: hah? eh bakit pareho tayo ng number?
me: (somewhat alarmed. i thought my phone was cloned or something) hindi nga po eh. yung number nyo po ay four four zero five. sa akin po ay four four two four four zero five.
stranger: (confused) ah...

the line was cut. after a minute, she called again.

stranger: elo? por por siro payb? ano ba kayo diyan!
me: (restraining myself from throwing the damn phone from irritation) hindi nga po. four four two four four zero five po ito.
stranger: yun nga. por por tu por por siro payb! bakit nga pareho tayo ng number? bakit nasa iyo ang number namin?
me: (suddenly understanding the situation) ay ma'am, landline ho ba ang tinatawagan nyo? dagdagan nyo po ng zero two (02) bago yung number. cellular phone po kasi ito.
stranger: ha? pano nangyari yun?

(after some time she finally understood)

stranger: ay sorry ha. thank you!

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no day is complete without funny incidents! what a beautiful life!

sa tabi lang po!

my day revolved around parking spaces. literally.

first up, paseo center parking. ok. they have nice parking spaces. you won't have to choose a particular spot since most, if not all, parking slots are shaded by trees. no more ouch-i-can't-touch-the-steering-wheel-so-excuse-my-driving-style moments! imagine my shock when i came up to the attendant's window and saw the rates.

Php 30 for the first 2 hours
Php 40 for the succeeding hours

huwat?!? no wonder the parking lot is empty! if i hadn't circled the area twice and found no empty parking space i wouldn't resort parking here. but i was meeting someone and i didn't want to walk that far so i had no choice. besides, i could always move my car after.

after my lunch date, i drove around in search of a better parking lot. better meaning cheaper than that pricey piece of lot. i settled for the sidewalk parking which is limited to 3 hours. i found a space near Rufino just in time before another car took the spot. yehey! i have good maneuvering skills and quick reflexes! i went on with my business and met with a friend soon afterwards. while discussing topics of little importance, she asked me where i parked. to which i answered, "diyan sa tabi-tabi". i suddenly remembered the 3-hour parking limit. i then asked her what will happen if i don't move my car after the alloted time expired. she replied, "mato-tow! ok lang yan. malapit lang naman yun. sa may fire station!"

ohmygulay?!? i was going to pay Php30 parking plus fine if that happens! the cheapo that i am, i hastily said my goodbyes and ran off to my car. no way am i going to waste money paying for fine and walking to the impound station! good thing i was just in time! the parking attendant was already eyeing my car.

i drove around in circles. i didn't know where to go. the only places i knew in makati were glorietta and greenbelt. aside from the mcdo at the people support building. i accepted my fate. there was nowhere else to go but the mall since i still had to wait for my sister to get out the office. (buti pa siya may work) oh well. another Php40 down the drain. and to think i just got my allowance for training!

at least the 40 bucks was worth it. i was able to finish 3 books at powerbooks. not to mention browse a lot of other books. hehe. next time i'm i need to go to makati, i think i will just commute. unless i'm going to the mall. or somebody offers to pay for my parking.

sino ba talaga ang lucky home partner?

ok fine. kasalanan ko. na nakatulog ako at hindi ko nasunod ang bilin mo. sorry. that was my fault. alam kong responsibility ko yun. alam ko hindi ako mabuting example. na pasaway ako. na hindi ako yung ineexpect nyo. sorry. hindi ko sinasadya na iba ang paraan ko ng pag-iisip. na iba ang priorities ko. na hindi tayo magkapareho.

pero sana wag kang mag-assume. lumabas na naman yang usapan na ako ang pinakamaswerte. dahil ako ang panganay. dahil minsan lang ako gumamit ng pinaglumaan. na sa lahat ng bagay ako ang una. na mas minamalas yung mga sumunod sa akin. yung nasa gitna. yung bunso. siguro nga. pero hindi rin eh.

akala mo ba madali maging panganay?

ginusto ko ba na laging bago ang mga gamit ko? ok lang naman sa akin kahit pinaglumaan ah. ayokong gumagamit ng bago dahil may malaking responsibilidad na ingatan ko ang mga gamit ko. dahil may gagamit pa. kaya nga ako naging OC eh. kasi gusto ko maganda pa rin ang gagamitin ng mga kapatid ko. tapos hindi ko pa pwedeng angkinin yung mga gamit. kasi sa aming lahat yun eh. hating kapatid.

madali bang masabak sa mga bagong karanasan na walang magtuturo kung ano dapat ang gawin? buti nga sila pwede nila akong tanungin. lagi na akong may tips kung paano nila maiiwasan yung mga pagkakamali ko at masulit ang mga dinaranas nila. eh ako? sino ang pagtatanungan ko?

masaya bang masisi sa lahat ng pagkakamali mo pati ng mga kapatid mo? dahil nasa akin ang responsibility na maging good role model. na kailangan maging perfect. na kailangan magset ng mataas na standard. na dapat lagi ko silang i-check at i-guide sa ginagawa nila. na kung may mangyaring di kanais-nais sa akin lagi itinatanong o isinisisi. dahil ako ang tinutularan nila.

hindi ba nakakastress na tuwing gusto mong magplano ng lakad, dapat mo munang itanong kung may lakad din sila? para mai-adjust ko ang schedule ko para ma-accommodate kung may ihahatid, susunduin o sasamahan ako. o magpanggap na alam ko kung san yung pupuntahan nila para mapayagan silang lumabas dahil ayaw kong maranasan nila ang madprive ng mga karanasan na dapat nae-enjoy habang bata pa dahil baka pagsisihan sa pagtanda.

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wala naman talagang pinakaswerte sa amin lahat eh. bakit kailangan na iparamdam mo sa akin ito? porke ba hindi ka naging masaya nung panahon mo? bakit gusto mo na lagi kong nararamdaman yung feeling na guilty ako sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko. na hindi ako dapat masaya. masama bang maging masaya palagi? masama bang maging appreciative sa mga maliliit na bagay? masama bang makuntento sa kung anong meron na ako? masama ba na iba yung mga pangarap ko sa mga pangarap mo para sa akin? hindi ko ba buhay 'to? ano bang gusto mong gawin ko? alam mo, nililito mo ako.

Ang buhay ay hindi parang cassette tape . . .

Na pwedeng i-rewind
kung may gusto kang balikang nasayang na mga pagkakataon
Na pwedeng i-replay
para maulit ang mga magagandang pangyayari sa iyong buhay
Na pwedeng i-forward
kung ayaw mo ng mga kasalukuyang pangyayari
Na pwedeng i-pause
dahil hindi ka pa handa na ma-experience ang nangyayari
Na pwedeng i-stop
dahil ayaw mo na!

So ang moral lesson: cassette tapes are outdated, mag CD ka men!

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galing kay MHLeon

just a thought utot

When the idea isn't right, God says no.
When the timing isn't right, God says slow.
When you are not right, God says grow.
And when everything is right, God says go.

...i guess i have to take it slow...(parang freestyle "let's take it slow, so slow...)

please hug me!

Just when I am starting to master the shortcuts on mac's platform...

i will no longer have continue my 2-week trial since they have found 2 experienced candidates to fill the vacant positions. i am not angry nor depressed. the decision has been explained to me clearly and i agree given the circumstances. i am just sad.

sad
because i already made a connection with the people there
because i think i have found what i really want to do
because working there made me happy

i felt awful the whole day. it was so hard keeping the information to myself... that this would be my last day. i think most of the people noticed that i am not my cheerful self. i didn't want to say goodbye because it would be so hard to control the tears. (sus. hindi pa naman ako gumagamit ng Johnson's No More Tears shampoo. No more tears baby of mine!)

i will surely miss
...the great food
...the bathroom with the butt-shower thing ( i seriously do not know what it is called)
...patch and lucas
...the nice people in the kitchen who give extra food to the staff (sorry i couldn't remember all your names. i haven't had the chance to get to know each one of you)
...ms ninfa, who is very accommodating and who does not tire of answering my endless queries
...ms celine, for allowing me to use your laptop so that i can gain access to the internet and send my reports and works
...charisse, for letting me listen to your music files and for helping find what i need in the library. goodluck with your studies!
...kuya dennis, who moved my car so that i will not have to pay for parking and offered to get me more rice during lunch
...kuya robert, whom i first spoke to when i came in for my one day trial and offered to move so i could sit with the other people at the lunch table
...kuya eric, who opens the door for me whenever i come in too early for work and teases me whenever we bump into each other
...kuya obet and jun, for always answering my questions about the equipment and shoots and allows me to observe them at work
...3rd flr ladies (karen, gemma, kristy, irene and maritess) for always helping me with the stuff i need to do and for being so kind to ask me to join you for lunch or merienda and for sharing tips on almost any topic concerning women
...C family, thanks for giving me a chance to prove myself!
...GA, we didn't get to be introduced personally but from what i have observed through your conversations with the other people, i think you are cool!
...BC, thanks for allowing me to interview you and for sharing stories with me


oh well, until we meet again. i know our paths will cross in the future.

i will be back!

for now, back to jobhunting again...

sitting...wishing...waiting...

Aries
Your week ahead: Pluto brings the chance to make a very special wish... and have it granted. So think carefully about what you ought to ask for. Don't waste your big chance on some small dream that just happens to be preoccupying you at the moment. Don't seek help with a problem that you can sort out with effort and intelligence. Ask for something that is truly impossible! And then... be willing to wait a little while for the cosmos to deliver your order. If you now set yourself a bold, ambitious and worthwhile target - then show some faith and summon some patience, a way to reach it will somehow present itself. (source: Cainer's Forecasts)

ano kaya ang iwi-wish ko? ang hirap mag-isip ah. ang daming pwedeng i-wish eh. pero dapat extraordinary. chance of a lifetime ata ito. wala namang mawawala kung di ko gagawin. hahaha. superstitious ata ako. hindi masyado.

sa wakas

napanood ko na rin ang my sassy girl. kakaiyak. madami akong naisip. pero nakakaiyak. yun lang. haha.

salamat kay chris sa pagbigay sa akin ng 2 kopya para siguraduhin na mapanood ko at makarelate kapag pinag-uusapan ng mga tao. hindi na ako deprived ngayon. hahaha. nakakahiya. after more than a year after binigay saken ang CD tsaka ko lang napanood. este pinanuod. busy-busyhan kse eh. di bale. babawi ako. every weekend kong papanuorin para masaya. hehehe.

ilang araw na lang...

my 2-week trial/training will be over in a matter of days...exciting na sad din. more than a week na rin ako and i got to know the people there, got the feel of work, work environment. ang saya-saya! ang sarap pa ng food.

it's so scary...the countdown begins! (again)

paano kung hindi ako makuha? back-to-zero na naman. hindi. dapat positive pala ako. makukuha ako! makukuha ako! makukuha ako!

it just occurred to me, wala pala akong lucky charm! wala lang. hindi ba yung mga tao dapat may lucky charm na source ng kanilang lucky vibes? ay sabagay, i consider myself a lucky girl pala. talbog ko pa yung may charms. kasi ako, buong sarili ko ang maswerte! ang saya!

nakakunot ka na ba?

antagal ko na palang hindi nag-uupdate. iba na talaga kapag busy...busy-busyhan. hehe.

naka 5 days na ako sa work. marami pa ring hindi natatapos pero ayos lang. may time pa. hindi naman ako masyadong nasestress. medyo lang. hahaha.

unang-una, kelangan ko aralin ang paggamit ng mac. nakakalito talaga kapag nasanay ka na sa pc. ang bagal ko tuloy kasi di ko kabisado yung mga keyboard shortcuts.

pangalawa, di ko matapos ang mga requirements kasi maraming information ang kailangan kong kunin sa iba't ibang tao. pinapakiramdaman ko pa sila. kung anong style ang gagamitin ko sa kanila. kasi madali lang makiusap sa mga mababait. eh pano yung mga masusungit? yung mga laging busy? (parang ako. hehe) yung mga laging wala? tapos nagsisimula ka pa lang din na kilalalin at makihalubilo sa kanila. ang hirap.

pangatlo, oldies ang mga pinapatugtog na kanta sa floor namin. grabe. talagang napapapikit nako sa desk ko. hindi man lang ako makapagpractice ng pagiging diva. hay. naooverpower ako ng mga lola. buti na lang late dumating ang mga tao sa umaga kaya nakakakanta pa ako ng malakas for one hour.

pang-apat, ang lamig-lamig! or hindi lang ako sanay na naka-aircon buong araw. halos bawat oras pumupunta ako ng banyo para umihi eh. sayang yung iniinom kong tubig.

pang-lima, pressure. araw-araw nakikita ko yung ibang applicant for the same position. nakakakaba kapag naiisip kong baka isa sa kanila ang makuha instead na ako.

pang-anim, marami pang test! may role-playing at kelangan ko maipasa ang mga requirements by next week na! huhuhu. kailangan ko na ng super powers!

oh well, makatulog na nga para maaga ako pumasok tom. marami pang gagawin eh. sana may shoot ulit. hehe.