clockwise L-R: me, ava, grace, guiller and bel
(taken sa parking lot malapit sa gate 2.5 after watching CADS Dance Lab...we lab dancing!)
we LAB dance!!!
clockwise L-R: me, ava, grace, guiller and bel
(taken sa parking lot malapit sa gate 2.5 after watching CADS Dance Lab...we lab dancing!)
i are baboon!
due to an unplanned drinking session thanks to a certain kahlil (accdng to a certain ava, your party sucks! rock on! hehe) who provided us with an assortment of drinks, which i'm sure are quite popular with the regular tambays (read: lasenggo) of the sari-sari store, i now look like a baboon. literally. i think i'm allergic to something that i drank. my butt is sore and red due to rashes which i have developed this morning. hmm, can't imagine why i'm having these things at such an unusual place! i am now forced to contain myself or i would be scratching my butt every now and then. i hope these rashes will disappear...
opening: BOYPS! immediate hiring! applicants please inquire inside!
wahaha! on a quest to find THE ONE... the one who will morph from a slimy toad to a handsome prince, the street urchin who will show me a whole new world, the beast who has a kind heart, the prince who will wake me from this nightmare with a kiss, etc. etc. ...you probably noticed that i am a big fan of disney animated fairy tales. teehee! i have listed some "qualities" i wish my future boyps would have. wish lang naman eh.
MALINIS. i don't like guys who have dirt under their fingernails. who look like they haven't washed their hair for a week. who look like they haven't changed clothes for a couple of days. ayoko rin ng gumagamit ng brief na may side A and B. i want someone who looks neat. somebody who makes sure that he took lessons on proper hygiene and is practicing what he learned.
MABANGO. i have this fetish for smelling people. if you smell that good, you better watch out for me! i'll be all over you before you can say "wuff!" if you stink, hindi kita friend. just kidding. i just wouldn't be able to think of you as a potential boyps. hehe. i mean, who would?
teka parang commercial na 'to ng sabong panlaba? hmm...
ROMANTIC. i want somebody who'll do romantic things for me. hindi naman kailangan gumastos dito. basta maging creative lang sya. hehehe. basta maramdaman ko na ako lang ang babae na mamahalin nya. wahaha! selfish ako eh.
PATIENT. somebody who'll never get tired of my kakulitan, corny jokes and crazy antics. Ü yeah...i'm a lunatic!
HONEST. i hate liars! as if hindi kita mahuhuli kapag nagsisinungaling ka.
PRESENTABLE. pwede na sa akin kung Marc Nelson look-alike ka. hehe. just kidding. basta may konting fashion sense pwede na. walang strict height requirement pero kung pwede sana at least magkasinglaki man lang tayo. kung pwede rin ay wala kang deformities (baka mamaya 3 pala nipples mo. pero kung HONEST ka naman tungkol dun baka pumasa na rin). kung pwede rin sana medyo may muscles man lang. hehe. hindi naman kailangan na buffed na tipong magpuputukan na ang mga ugat mo sa braso. aba, nakakatakot na yun ha.
HAS A GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR. in short, corny. hehe. dapat nasasakyan ko naman ang jokes mo at napapatawa mo ako.
HAS A VALID DRIVER'S LICENSE. not necessarily a professional driver's license dahil hindi ako naghahanap ng driver. hindi ko na itatanong ang net income mo. ok lang sa akin magcommute. ok lang sa akin kung wala kang kotse (pero kung meron eh di mabuti!). pero sana minsan ako naman ang nasa passenger seat. nakakapagod din magdrive ha.
NON-SMOKER. ayoko sa mga naninigarilyo. smoking is bad for your health... and mine too! aside from that, it's not environment friendly. wag ka ng dumagdag sa pollution sa mundo!
hmm...yan na lng muna. saka ko na dadagdagan pa kapag naisip ko na yung iba.
ROMANTIC. i want somebody who'll do romantic things for me. hindi naman kailangan gumastos dito. basta maging creative lang sya. hehehe. basta maramdaman ko na ako lang ang babae na mamahalin nya. wahaha! selfish ako eh.
PATIENT. somebody who'll never get tired of my kakulitan, corny jokes and crazy antics. Ü yeah...i'm a lunatic!
HONEST. i hate liars! as if hindi kita mahuhuli kapag nagsisinungaling ka.
PRESENTABLE. pwede na sa akin kung Marc Nelson look-alike ka. hehe. just kidding. basta may konting fashion sense pwede na. walang strict height requirement pero kung pwede sana at least magkasinglaki man lang tayo. kung pwede rin ay wala kang deformities (baka mamaya 3 pala nipples mo. pero kung HONEST ka naman tungkol dun baka pumasa na rin). kung pwede rin sana medyo may muscles man lang. hehe. hindi naman kailangan na buffed na tipong magpuputukan na ang mga ugat mo sa braso. aba, nakakatakot na yun ha.
HAS A GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR. in short, corny. hehe. dapat nasasakyan ko naman ang jokes mo at napapatawa mo ako.
HAS A VALID DRIVER'S LICENSE. not necessarily a professional driver's license dahil hindi ako naghahanap ng driver. hindi ko na itatanong ang net income mo. ok lang sa akin magcommute. ok lang sa akin kung wala kang kotse (pero kung meron eh di mabuti!). pero sana minsan ako naman ang nasa passenger seat. nakakapagod din magdrive ha.
NON-SMOKER. ayoko sa mga naninigarilyo. smoking is bad for your health... and mine too! aside from that, it's not environment friendly. wag ka ng dumagdag sa pollution sa mundo!
hmm...yan na lng muna. saka ko na dadagdagan pa kapag naisip ko na yung iba.
*if you are qualified, please send your comprehensive resume to clebibadoobi@yahoo.com. Attach 1 full-body picture and 1 close-up picture. Only qualified applicants will be entertained! hahaha. sineryoso.
*if you are gay but have the above-mentioned qualities, please feel free to approach me. we might turn out to be great friends! hehehe. at bka ikaw pala ang may kilala kay future boyps. wahaha.
God, what's taking him so long. ay baka her pala! ;)
God, what's taking him so long. ay baka her pala! ;)
ADDENDUM:(mataas standards ko eh. wahaha.)
MUSICALLY-INCLINED. preferably a singer. i want to be serenaded. pwede na rin basta marunong tumugtog ng kahit anong musical instrument. hehe. gusto ko balang araw na magkatuluyan man kami at ikasal eh magduet kami sa reception. hehe. ang romantic!
SWEET. gusto ko nilalambing ako palagi kasi malambing din ako. i want to be showered with hugs and kisses! (teka, hindi ba chocolates yun? sarap!) pero wag naman over. baka langgamin tayo nyan! pero ayoko naman yung nagba-baby talk. hindi nako baby!!!
GOOD CONVERSATIONALIST. i want somebody whom i can discuss with a wide range of topics. kababawan man o kalaliman. (corny ko talaga!!!)
REALISTIC. ayoko ng nagpro-promise ng kung anu-ano tapos di naman pala tutuparin. i don't expect more than what is realistically possible. sabi nga...magpakatotoo ka sister! kung di mo kaya eh di wag mo sabihin na kaya mo. ayoko ng pinapaasa. bad yun.
tama na nga at baka wala ng pumasa. hehehe.
hangover from Le Phantom de l'Opera (Phantom of the Opera)
spent approximately 6 hours (3 hours last night, 3 hours this morning) watching a pirated copy of The Phantom of the Opera. not counting the minutes where i replayed scenes from the movie. what a great musical! why didn't i think of going into theater? it has everything that i want...song and dance, production design, directing, set design, costume design, make-up...everything!
anyway, i fell in love with Christine and Raoul. they are so romantic! i wonder if my prince will also sing for me...*sighs*
All I Ask of You
No more talk of darkness;
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you --
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you...
Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me with you, now and always...
promise me that all you say is true --
that's all I ask of you...
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you --
your fears are far behind you...
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night...
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me...
Then say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime...
let me lead you from your solitude...
Say you need me with you here,
beside you...
anywhere you go, let me go too --
Christine, that's all I ask of you...
Say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime...
say the word
and I will follow you....
Share each day with me,
each night,
each morning...
Say you love me...
You know I do...
Love me --
that's all I ask of you...
Anywhere you go
let me go too...
Love me --
that's all I ask of you....
go to http://www.niehs.nih.gov/kids/lyrics/alliask.htm if you want to sing along with music. a word of caution...the tempo is quite faster than it should be. be prepared!
anyway, i fell in love with Christine and Raoul. they are so romantic! i wonder if my prince will also sing for me...*sighs*
All I Ask of You
No more talk of darkness;
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you --
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you...
Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me with you, now and always...
promise me that all you say is true --
that's all I ask of you...
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you --
your fears are far behind you...
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night...
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me...
Then say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime...
let me lead you from your solitude...
Say you need me with you here,
beside you...
anywhere you go, let me go too --
Christine, that's all I ask of you...
Say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime...
say the word
and I will follow you....
Share each day with me,
each night,
each morning...
Say you love me...
You know I do...
Love me --
that's all I ask of you...
Anywhere you go
let me go too...
Love me --
that's all I ask of you....
go to http://www.niehs.nih.gov/kids/lyrics/alliask.htm if you want to sing along with music. a word of caution...the tempo is quite faster than it should be. be prepared!
playing with the enemy
me and my boyps yakki...enjoying a moment with the dangerous kittycats of CHAP. hehehe. never let them know that you are carrying food or else, brace yourself for a cat fight!
i can see you!
me and cathy goofing around. this was taken during ninna's bday bash / despedida party last feb 19.
i hate being jobless
waah! its been almost 3 wks since i left my job.
i'm bored.
i've burned my fingers typing and clicking away. the tips are already flat and have some form of white marking, possibly from the keyboard. i am now a certified net addict. from the moment i wake up (which is around 9-10am) up till dawn, i sit in front of the computer like a zombie. i am a resident of YM. my world consists of smileys and audibles and looking through this little thing called webcam. i have seen every nook and cranny of friendster, yahoo, gmail, blogger and buzznet. i've read every possible blog account that my friend, my friend's friend, etc. have written in the last couple of hours. i've done every possible thing that can be done in cyberspace...except for that. wahaha. my head is actually spinning from too much internet. i should let my siblings use the computer once in a while.
i don't have money.
technically, i do. but of course, i can't spend it like i used to. i miss shopping. which reminds me that i burned a hole in my wallet spending two grand in one day. nothing else can give you the sense of fulfillment knowing that somehow you shopped to your heart's content...for that day at least.
i am still not getting any fatter.
i've been stuck in my house for the past three weeks and after all the eating binges, i still haven't gained an ounce. what the hell is wrong with me? i've been eating like crazy! even my mom is quite surprised but happy of course, that i've been eating like a horse. although she isn't too happy about the crumbs i leave by the computer. damn those pesky rats!
i haven't started "re-designing" our home.
i am such a procastinator. i'll tell you about it tomorrow. just kidding. my sister and i have actually planned to clean-up the house and give it a fresh new look. well, not entirely, but at least it should not be mistaken for a storage warehouse with all the new junk that we are accummulating everyday.
i should write new resolutions.
i've learned that writing them down makes err "forces" you to make concrete steps in achieving your goals. so here are the things that i should accomplish while i am still on vacation...
i'm bored.
i've burned my fingers typing and clicking away. the tips are already flat and have some form of white marking, possibly from the keyboard. i am now a certified net addict. from the moment i wake up (which is around 9-10am) up till dawn, i sit in front of the computer like a zombie. i am a resident of YM. my world consists of smileys and audibles and looking through this little thing called webcam. i have seen every nook and cranny of friendster, yahoo, gmail, blogger and buzznet. i've read every possible blog account that my friend, my friend's friend, etc. have written in the last couple of hours. i've done every possible thing that can be done in cyberspace...except for that. wahaha. my head is actually spinning from too much internet. i should let my siblings use the computer once in a while.
i don't have money.
technically, i do. but of course, i can't spend it like i used to. i miss shopping. which reminds me that i burned a hole in my wallet spending two grand in one day. nothing else can give you the sense of fulfillment knowing that somehow you shopped to your heart's content...for that day at least.
i am still not getting any fatter.
i've been stuck in my house for the past three weeks and after all the eating binges, i still haven't gained an ounce. what the hell is wrong with me? i've been eating like crazy! even my mom is quite surprised but happy of course, that i've been eating like a horse. although she isn't too happy about the crumbs i leave by the computer. damn those pesky rats!
i haven't started "re-designing" our home.
i am such a procastinator. i'll tell you about it tomorrow. just kidding. my sister and i have actually planned to clean-up the house and give it a fresh new look. well, not entirely, but at least it should not be mistaken for a storage warehouse with all the new junk that we are accummulating everyday.
i should write new resolutions.
i've learned that writing them down makes err "forces" you to make concrete steps in achieving your goals. so here are the things that i should accomplish while i am still on vacation...
- stop surfing the net too much. this means only two hours of surfing a day. unless i am looking for jobs to apply to or scholarship grants.
- start learning how to cook. someday, this might spell the difference between getting the man of my dreams or getting stuck home alone and eating out of the cans. just kidding. but i do think this is essential if i want to move out and live independently.
- start cleaning up the house and getting rid of all useless junk. this might mean another garage sale. i think i hear bells ringing...kaching kaching!
- start exercising. who said only horizontally challenged people need to burn some fat? i want to be some kick-ass chick! Darna!
guess i'll get back to this list later. charlie needs to use the pc...
pang Miss U nga ba ako?!? (not for general patronage)
sabi nila, malalaman ko raw kung pwede akong maging contestant sa Miss U sa pamamagitan ng pagsagot sa survey na to. ating alamin. hehehe.
1. Kung papalitan ang balat mo sa buong katawan, ano ang mas gusto mong ipalit, balat mo sa siko o balat mo sa talampakan? uhm, balat na lang sa talampakan. kulubot kasi ang balat sa siko eh. tsaka mas maputi ata ang balat sa talampakan. hindi ba?
2. Kung tatlo na lang ang buhok mo sa ulo, gusto mo bang sama-sama ang mga ito o hiwa-hiwalay? aba sama-sama siyempre. kung magkakahiwalay sila, hindi sila mapapansin. tsaka mas mahirap suklayin. mas marami pang ayos ang pwedeng gawin kapag magkakasama sila. kung makakahiwalay sila pwede ba silang itirintas? aber?
3. Maliban sa buhok at kuko, anong parte ng iyong katawan ang nais mong patuloy na humahaba? walang iba kundi ang legs. para pang mowdel. hehehe.
4. Kung ikaw ay magiging materyal na bagay, ano ka, toilet paper o sanitary napkin? toilet paper na lang para pang all-around! dapat practical tayo...
5. Meron kang six-inch na makapal na buhok sa kili-kili, anong gagawin mo dito: rebond, dreadlocks o afro? sa palagay ko ang buhok natin reflection ng sarili. kapag rebond kasi parang nakikiuso ka lng sa trend ngayon. ayoko nun. limp ang hair. kapag dreadlocks naman parang sinabi mo na rin na hindi ka naliligo. sa afro ako coz im wild! wahaha! tsaka natural. hehehe.
6. Kung ikaw ay magkaka-girlfriend, ano ang mas gusto mo, babaeng may chest hair o babaeng may goatee? hmm, so ibig sabihin ay tanggap na ang pagkakaroon ng same sex relationship? kung magkaroon man ako ng girlfriend, mas gugustuhin ko na siguro ang babaeng may goatee. ang sexy di ba? ayoko na ng sergio look-alike. tapos na ang marimar days noh!
7. Isa na lang ang kilay mo, saan mo ito ilalagay, sa kanan o sa kaliwa? sa kanan. right-handed kasi ako. mas madali magmake-up. hehehe. tsaka sa kanan ata ang best angle ko. hehehe. *direk, i'm ready for my shoot!"
8. Kanino mo gustong makipag-makeout, sa taong walang ngipin o taong walang dila? sa taong walang ngipin na lng. essential ang dila. *o, bka kung ano-ano ang iniisip...esep-esep!*
9. Pimple sa ilong o ilong sa pimple? (actually, slightly modified: magkaroon ng isang malaking pimple sa ilong forever o kada magka-pimple ka eh may ilong ito pimple sa ilong na lang. aba, mahirap ata magkaroon ng ilong sa pimple. ano yun? humihinga rin sya? katakot! nai-imagine mo ba ang sarili mo na naggugupit ng buhok sa sangkatutak na ilong every week? yikes!
10. Kung papalitan ang nipple mo, anong ipapalit mo dito, mata, ilong o daliri? naku. ang hirap na tanong naman nyan. teka, siguro daliri na lng. mas marami kseng magagawa yun. aanhin mo ang mata kung lagi nman natatakpan ng bra. kung ilong naman, katulad ng sagot sa number 9, mahirap gumupit ng nose hairs. eh kung daliri, kung marami kang dala, pwedeng gamiting pang doorbell...o diba? useful!
1. Kung papalitan ang balat mo sa buong katawan, ano ang mas gusto mong ipalit, balat mo sa siko o balat mo sa talampakan? uhm, balat na lang sa talampakan. kulubot kasi ang balat sa siko eh. tsaka mas maputi ata ang balat sa talampakan. hindi ba?
2. Kung tatlo na lang ang buhok mo sa ulo, gusto mo bang sama-sama ang mga ito o hiwa-hiwalay? aba sama-sama siyempre. kung magkakahiwalay sila, hindi sila mapapansin. tsaka mas mahirap suklayin. mas marami pang ayos ang pwedeng gawin kapag magkakasama sila. kung makakahiwalay sila pwede ba silang itirintas? aber?
3. Maliban sa buhok at kuko, anong parte ng iyong katawan ang nais mong patuloy na humahaba? walang iba kundi ang legs. para pang mowdel. hehehe.
4. Kung ikaw ay magiging materyal na bagay, ano ka, toilet paper o sanitary napkin? toilet paper na lang para pang all-around! dapat practical tayo...
5. Meron kang six-inch na makapal na buhok sa kili-kili, anong gagawin mo dito: rebond, dreadlocks o afro? sa palagay ko ang buhok natin reflection ng sarili. kapag rebond kasi parang nakikiuso ka lng sa trend ngayon. ayoko nun. limp ang hair. kapag dreadlocks naman parang sinabi mo na rin na hindi ka naliligo. sa afro ako coz im wild! wahaha! tsaka natural. hehehe.
6. Kung ikaw ay magkaka-girlfriend, ano ang mas gusto mo, babaeng may chest hair o babaeng may goatee? hmm, so ibig sabihin ay tanggap na ang pagkakaroon ng same sex relationship? kung magkaroon man ako ng girlfriend, mas gugustuhin ko na siguro ang babaeng may goatee. ang sexy di ba? ayoko na ng sergio look-alike. tapos na ang marimar days noh!
7. Isa na lang ang kilay mo, saan mo ito ilalagay, sa kanan o sa kaliwa? sa kanan. right-handed kasi ako. mas madali magmake-up. hehehe. tsaka sa kanan ata ang best angle ko. hehehe. *direk, i'm ready for my shoot!"
8. Kanino mo gustong makipag-makeout, sa taong walang ngipin o taong walang dila? sa taong walang ngipin na lng. essential ang dila. *o, bka kung ano-ano ang iniisip...esep-esep!*
9. Pimple sa ilong o ilong sa pimple? (actually, slightly modified: magkaroon ng isang malaking pimple sa ilong forever o kada magka-pimple ka eh may ilong ito pimple sa ilong na lang. aba, mahirap ata magkaroon ng ilong sa pimple. ano yun? humihinga rin sya? katakot! nai-imagine mo ba ang sarili mo na naggugupit ng buhok sa sangkatutak na ilong every week? yikes!
10. Kung papalitan ang nipple mo, anong ipapalit mo dito, mata, ilong o daliri? naku. ang hirap na tanong naman nyan. teka, siguro daliri na lng. mas marami kseng magagawa yun. aanhin mo ang mata kung lagi nman natatakpan ng bra. kung ilong naman, katulad ng sagot sa number 9, mahirap gumupit ng nose hairs. eh kung daliri, kung marami kang dala, pwedeng gamiting pang doorbell...o diba? useful!
nginig to the bones!
peste. nakakainis. kinakabahan ako para sa interview ko mamaya.
kung bakit naman kasi kailangan pang magdala ng portfolio. hindi naman graphic artist ang pinapasukan kong trabaho. hay nako.
kung bakit kasi kailangan pang magcrash ang computer ko bago ko magback-up lahat ng mga ginawa ko. wala tuloy ako masyadong maipapakita.
kung bakit kasi binura ko yung mga ginawa ko na hindi naman nagamit. ay ewan.
katangahan talaga. goodluck na lang sa akin.
kung bakit naman kasi kailangan pang magdala ng portfolio. hindi naman graphic artist ang pinapasukan kong trabaho. hay nako.
kung bakit kasi kailangan pang magcrash ang computer ko bago ko magback-up lahat ng mga ginawa ko. wala tuloy ako masyadong maipapakita.
kung bakit kasi binura ko yung mga ginawa ko na hindi naman nagamit. ay ewan.
katangahan talaga. goodluck na lang sa akin.
Upward Stream of Sadness ...from a friend's blog
Dear A1,
Pasensya kana na text kita kanina ha. Binabasa ko kase yung mga letters na binigay mo sakin nun eh. Parang apat na taon din yung napunta sa wala. Nagsimula tayo bilang magkaibigan, ngayon, parang hindi na nga tayo magkakilala. Siguro busy ka sa kanya. Okay lang naman sakin yun eh. Alam ko. Kase dati, sa akin ka busy.
Tinatanong ko nga sarili ko bakit ko pa tinatago lahat ng mga sulat mo eh. Nandun lahat ng mga pangako mo. Yung forever na sinabi mo. Pero ngayon, isang minuto lang.... Sandali lang ha, naiiyak ako. Naaalala na naman kase kita. Naaalala mo pa ba nung kasama kita sa car ni Jake nung hahatid niya ako sa bahay nung nanliligaw pa siya? Bestfriend palang kita nun pero alam ko, naramdaman ko, yung mga tingin mo, na sobrang selos ka. Tapos nun, naging tayo.
Ang dami narin nating pinagdaanan. Malayo ka palang, alam ko nandyan kana. Konti lang naman kase ang nagbi-bike pumasok sa Ateneo. Yung laptop mo na lagi mong dinadala sa loob ng campus kase unlimited internet access. Yung condo. Yung bank account natin na malapit na ipaghiwalay ngayon. Yung mga pictures natin sa digicam ko. Diba nagpaparamihan pa nga tayo ng friends nun sa friendster? Isang malungkot na ngiti nalang ang nakikita ko sa salamin pag tinitignan ko sarili ko tuwing naaalala kita.
Siguro nga hindi ako para sayo. Masyado ka kasing mabait, masyado kang perpekto, parang hindi na kita maabot. Nung hindi pa tayo gumagradweyt, iisa lang ang pangarap natin pareho. Pero pagkatapos nun, marami kang hinanap, maraming kang iniba; at kasama ako na may kapalit sa puso mo.
Hindi ko lang inaasahan na ipagpapalit mo ako.Mahalin ka sana niya tulad ng pagmamahal na ginawa ko at patuloy kong ginagawa. Kung tutuusin, something good came out of this: one of your dreams came true. Diba college palang tayo ay gustong-gusto mo na siya? Masaya ako para sayo. Huwag kang mag-alala sakin. Okay lang ako. Kuntento na akong makita na may ibang aura ang taong dating nagmamahal sakin. Siguro kayo nga talaga.
Tama lang ang tatlong taon nating pinagsamahan. Nakilala natin ang isa't-isang mabuti. Those were the happiest moments in my life. At kung bibigyan ako ng pagkakataon na papiliin kung gusto kong daanan lahat ng pinagdaan ko makapiling ka lang, kahit sampung beses pa. Ganyan eh, parte kana talaga. Swerte lahat ng taong mamahalin mo. Mapalad ako na naging ako yun kahit minsan.
Ayoko na ngang umuwi ng bahay kase lahat ng nakikita ko sa kwarto ko, halos lahat galing sa iyo. Pati pa yung ibang bigay mo sa mga kapatid ko at mga parents ko. Yung mga korni mong texts, buburahin ko ba? Minsan nga sinasanay ko nan pumirma na gamit ang apelido mo.
Ayokong tapusin ito. Kase pagtinapos ko ito, parang tinapos ko narin ang mga alaala nating dalawa. Bibigay mo na sakin yun. Yun nalang ang thank you mo sa mga bagay na....
(For Cla, I feel for you...Honestly)
*****
Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all when in the end, you have lost everything?
(its not as if i feel the same thing today. i just wanted to remember what i felt during that time. for old time's sake.)
Pasensya kana na text kita kanina ha. Binabasa ko kase yung mga letters na binigay mo sakin nun eh. Parang apat na taon din yung napunta sa wala. Nagsimula tayo bilang magkaibigan, ngayon, parang hindi na nga tayo magkakilala. Siguro busy ka sa kanya. Okay lang naman sakin yun eh. Alam ko. Kase dati, sa akin ka busy.
Tinatanong ko nga sarili ko bakit ko pa tinatago lahat ng mga sulat mo eh. Nandun lahat ng mga pangako mo. Yung forever na sinabi mo. Pero ngayon, isang minuto lang.... Sandali lang ha, naiiyak ako. Naaalala na naman kase kita. Naaalala mo pa ba nung kasama kita sa car ni Jake nung hahatid niya ako sa bahay nung nanliligaw pa siya? Bestfriend palang kita nun pero alam ko, naramdaman ko, yung mga tingin mo, na sobrang selos ka. Tapos nun, naging tayo.
Ang dami narin nating pinagdaanan. Malayo ka palang, alam ko nandyan kana. Konti lang naman kase ang nagbi-bike pumasok sa Ateneo. Yung laptop mo na lagi mong dinadala sa loob ng campus kase unlimited internet access. Yung condo. Yung bank account natin na malapit na ipaghiwalay ngayon. Yung mga pictures natin sa digicam ko. Diba nagpaparamihan pa nga tayo ng friends nun sa friendster? Isang malungkot na ngiti nalang ang nakikita ko sa salamin pag tinitignan ko sarili ko tuwing naaalala kita.
Siguro nga hindi ako para sayo. Masyado ka kasing mabait, masyado kang perpekto, parang hindi na kita maabot. Nung hindi pa tayo gumagradweyt, iisa lang ang pangarap natin pareho. Pero pagkatapos nun, marami kang hinanap, maraming kang iniba; at kasama ako na may kapalit sa puso mo.
Hindi ko lang inaasahan na ipagpapalit mo ako.Mahalin ka sana niya tulad ng pagmamahal na ginawa ko at patuloy kong ginagawa. Kung tutuusin, something good came out of this: one of your dreams came true. Diba college palang tayo ay gustong-gusto mo na siya? Masaya ako para sayo. Huwag kang mag-alala sakin. Okay lang ako. Kuntento na akong makita na may ibang aura ang taong dating nagmamahal sakin. Siguro kayo nga talaga.
Tama lang ang tatlong taon nating pinagsamahan. Nakilala natin ang isa't-isang mabuti. Those were the happiest moments in my life. At kung bibigyan ako ng pagkakataon na papiliin kung gusto kong daanan lahat ng pinagdaan ko makapiling ka lang, kahit sampung beses pa. Ganyan eh, parte kana talaga. Swerte lahat ng taong mamahalin mo. Mapalad ako na naging ako yun kahit minsan.
Ayoko na ngang umuwi ng bahay kase lahat ng nakikita ko sa kwarto ko, halos lahat galing sa iyo. Pati pa yung ibang bigay mo sa mga kapatid ko at mga parents ko. Yung mga korni mong texts, buburahin ko ba? Minsan nga sinasanay ko nan pumirma na gamit ang apelido mo.
Ayokong tapusin ito. Kase pagtinapos ko ito, parang tinapos ko narin ang mga alaala nating dalawa. Bibigay mo na sakin yun. Yun nalang ang thank you mo sa mga bagay na....
(For Cla, I feel for you...Honestly)
*****
Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all when in the end, you have lost everything?
(its not as if i feel the same thing today. i just wanted to remember what i felt during that time. for old time's sake.)
what the world needs now is LOVE, sweet love...
everybody needs some lovin' today. V-day is not only for couples so share some LOVE!!! click on the following links below and show that you care. it will only take a minute on two.
CLEAN ENERGY NOW!
WWF, the Philippine Daily Inquirer, the Department of Energy (DOE) and the Renewable Energy Coalition launched in November a Clean Energy campaign to push for the passage of the Renewable Energy bill. The bill supports the development of renewable energy such as wind, biomass, hydro, solar and geothermal. WWF's PowerSwitch! scenario, a roadmap for sustainable energy, shows that there's more than enough renewable energy potential in the country– 1,200 MW for geothermal, 2,308 MW for hydro, 235 MW for biomass and 7,404 MW for wind. Increasing the share of renewable energy in the country's power mix will reduce dependence on imported fossil fuels such as coal and oil, and will result in savings amounting to US$ 2.3 billion for a 10-year period. The public can show their support for the Renewable Energy bill by texting WWF Yes to 2366 (Globe users). Register Now!
THE HUNGER SITE
Your click on the "Give Free Food" button funds food for the hungry, paid for by site sponsors whose ads appear after you click and provided to people in need around the world through the efforts of Mercy Corps and America's Second Harvest.
HUNGER: DO YOU KNOW THE FACTS?
It is estimated that one billion people in the world suffer from hunger and malnutrition. That's roughly 100 times as many as those who actually die from these causes each year. About 24,000 people die every day from hunger or hunger-related causes. This is down from 35,000 ten years ago, and 41,000 twenty years ago. Three-fourths of the deaths are children under the age of five. Famine and wars cause about 10% of hunger deaths, although these tend to be the ones you hear about most often. The majority of hunger deaths are caused by chronic malnutrition. Families facing extreme poverty are simply unable to get enough food to eat. In 1999, a year marked by good economic news, 31 million Americans were food insecure, meaning they were either hungry or unsure of where their next meal would come from. Of these Americans, 12 million were children. The Hunger Site began on June 1, 1999. Please remember to click every day to give help and hope to those with nowhere to turn. Every click counts in the life of a hungry person.
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EARLY DETECTION: DO YOU KNOW THE FACTS?
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THE CHILD HEALTH SITE
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THE LITERACY SITE
Remember the magic of your first book? Perhaps you were nestled in the arms of a parent, or sharing a giggle with a friend. Whatever your first memory of a book, books are a powerful tool; they stir the senses, inspire the imagination and spark a love of reading that can last a lifetime. But what of children who have no books? The Literacy Site gives you a way to share the magic of books and promote the love of reading among children who might otherwise never discover the joy of their first book. Your click on the red "Give Free Books" button at The Literacy Site generates books for children in need, funded by site sponsors and provided through our award winning charity partner, First Book. In the last three years, First Book has distributed over 20 million books to children in hundreds of communities. The number of books we put in children's hands depends on the number of visitors who click the "Give Free Books" button on The Literacy Site. Please click every day, and encourage friends and family members to do the same.
THE RAINFOREST SITE
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THE ANIMAL RESCUE SITE
The Animal Rescue Site focuses the power of the Internet on a specific need -- providing food for some of the 27 million unwanted animals given to shelters in the US every year. Over 10 million animals are put to death every year in the US alone because they are unwanted, abandoned, or abused. Each click on the purple "Feed an Animal in Need" button at The Animal Rescue Site provides food for an animal at North Shore Animal League America or at one of the Fund For Animals' world renowned animal sanctuaries, including the Black Beauty Ranch in Texas and the Wildlife Rehabilitation Center in California. Funding for food is paid by site sponsors, whose banners appear after you click the purple button, and goes to our aforementioned charity partners. The number of animals helped by the site depends on the number of visitors to The Animal Rescue Site. Please click every day, and encourage friends and family members to do so as well.
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Death by Carwash
i have always thought that hanging out at a cafe would be such a great idea to relax, unwind and have serious discussions about any topic under the sun. there's this place along Ma. Clara Street and Banawe which combines a car spa service and a cafe. definitely a cool place to hang-out while having your car pampered and your stomach filled. i have never imagined that i would be hearing the lamest pick-up line in a place like this. The following are snippets from our conversation with Emilio (coz he somehow reminded me of Emilio Garcia) aka Mr. Squeaky (he has ___ ears...go figure)
Mr. Squeaky: hi! may i borrow your lighter? (looking at PJ and Cathy who were smoking)
Cathy and PJ (in unison): sure!
Cathy handed him the purple lighter which says "You turn me on..."
PJ: (in a hushed tone) basta bigyan mo rin ako ng yosi...
apparently, Mr. Squeaky heard her.
Mr. Squeaky: sure sure. kuha lng kyo. (offering the pack of Marlboro lights to the three of us)
PJ: thanks thanks! i'm ok with this.
Cathy: no thanks! still have mine.
Me: nope. i don't smoke.
we go back to our conversation on why we like/dislike activists. Mr. Squeaky watches over his car which was currently being washed. after a few minutes, Mr. Squeaky who is facing opposite our table, swung around and started talking to us.
Mr. Squeaky: are you guys from here? (obviously trying to catch our attention.)
Cathy and PJ looked at me at the same time.
PJ: no we're not. except for her. (pointing at me)
Mr. Squeaky: you live nearby? (questioning me)
Me: Yeah. near Welcome.
Mr. Squeaky: Welcome-Rotonda?
Me: Yup.
Mr. Squeaky: ah malapit lng. so where are you from? (looking at Cathy)
Cathy: Valenzuela
Mr. Squeaky: and you? (looking at PJ)
PJ: here din sa QC.
Mr. Squeaky: hi! may i borrow your lighter? (looking at PJ and Cathy who were smoking)
Cathy and PJ (in unison): sure!
Cathy handed him the purple lighter which says "You turn me on..."
PJ: (in a hushed tone) basta bigyan mo rin ako ng yosi...
apparently, Mr. Squeaky heard her.
Mr. Squeaky: sure sure. kuha lng kyo. (offering the pack of Marlboro lights to the three of us)
PJ: thanks thanks! i'm ok with this.
Cathy: no thanks! still have mine.
Me: nope. i don't smoke.
we go back to our conversation on why we like/dislike activists. Mr. Squeaky watches over his car which was currently being washed. after a few minutes, Mr. Squeaky who is facing opposite our table, swung around and started talking to us.
Mr. Squeaky: are you guys from here? (obviously trying to catch our attention.)
Cathy and PJ looked at me at the same time.
PJ: no we're not. except for her. (pointing at me)
Mr. Squeaky: you live nearby? (questioning me)
Me: Yeah. near Welcome.
Mr. Squeaky: Welcome-Rotonda?
Me: Yup.
Mr. Squeaky: ah malapit lng. so where are you from? (looking at Cathy)
Cathy: Valenzuela
Mr. Squeaky: and you? (looking at PJ)
PJ: here din sa QC.
PJ's face started contorting into Chuckie doll's expression (or should i say chaka doll?)
Mr. Squeaky: so do you frequent this place often? nagpapacarwash din ba kayo?
In unison: No!
Ms. Squeaky: shouldn't you be out on a gimmick? it's Friday night.
PJ: this is our gimmick.
Ms. Squeaky: malaki ang sasakyan ko. kung gusto nyo punta tayo makati or something...
PJ: no thanks!
Cathy: Chaperone sya eh. (Eyes darting towards me)
Me: susundo pa ako eh.
at this point, its already obvious that we do not want to talk to him. and that all efforts to woo us to go with him are fruitless...pointless.
Mr. Squeaky: so where are your boyfriends? (obviously fishing for information. well sorry to say but he ran out of worms for bait)
PJ: just around the corner.
Mr. Squeaky: just around the corner?
PJ: Diyan sa tabi-tabi...
by now, all our faces have imitated the shape of Chuckie doll's face. if somebody took a picture of us, they would probably say that we were the next victims of Sadako in The Ring. We immediately asked for our bill and left. this guy was not going to give up.
Never have i seen such courage or stupidity for that matter. why can't boys be sensitive? (i call them boys since calling them men would entail that they already have the capacity to think clearly and be sensitive to issues) i can never truly understand their penchant for trying to pick up women este girls in unexpected places. what has the world come to? are there no good finds left? i am now starting to believe that my theory is true...the good guys are either already taken or gay and the ones left are spoiled.
IMPORTANT NOTE:
to the women out there, be cautious. if you see a guy around 6 feet tall, wearing a fit polo shirt which is halfway unbuttoned and he somehow resembles Emilio Garcia and has the attitude of Johnny Bravo, run towards the opposite direction.
oh btw, he has _____ ears.
to mr. squeaky, if by some chance the universe conspired for you to read my blog, STOP what you are doing! you are ruining your reputation. take some classes. maybe the guys from queer eye can still make miracles for you. be assured that i am praying for your soul. you have died in our eyes due to your ultimate bulok style. rest in peace!
jologs fantasy...almost a reality
today i went to an interview at a media outfit located at Diliman, QC. i feel so happy! it was a great interview. the first one was with the synergy officer and the second, with the film merchandising officer.
i think my dream of becoming a part of D Bodies is within my reach!!!! wahaha! just kidding. i guess i just feel so high and confident that i passed the first set of interviews. i hope i get the job. guess i'll find out in a few days...
i think my dream of becoming a part of D Bodies is within my reach!!!! wahaha! just kidding. i guess i just feel so high and confident that i passed the first set of interviews. i hope i get the job. guess i'll find out in a few days...
i'm a superstar!
i scheduled this day as my pictorial day. hahaha. i don't have a decent picture to put on my resume so out of necessity, i have to be "glamorous" today. gandang ricky reyes kumbaga. i hurriedly took a shower to prep myself for the shoot. unfortunately, in the middle of my bathing ritual, the lights went out. i assumed that the bulb had already consumed its useful life. oh well, at least there was light coming from the window.
stepping into our room, i realized that we had no electricity. Waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!! (the scene is reminiscent of Macaulay Culkin in Home Alone.) good thing i didn't drop my towel or else my sister could've had the scare of her life. hehehe.
optimism took over me. would this keep me away from my goal? the answer is a resounding NO. i assumed my fighting stance, a roller brush on one hand and a make-up brush on the other. so what if i have no hair blower?
i tried to remember everything that my beauty gurus/masters (kat, val, carmen and pj) have taught me since i would be doing this on my own. God help me.
start with a clean face.
moisturize.
apply concealer or foundation on those unwanted spots and scars.
put blush on both cheeks for that rosy glow.
apply a little eye shadow here and there.
pluck stray hairs from the eyebrow.
curl those lashes.
apply shimmery eye shadow to the corner of the eyes for that wide-eyed look.
apply concealer or light foundation on the nose for a "matangos na ilong" effect.
presto! instant beauty queen! i'm now ready for that photo shoot.
i also prepared several "costumes" for the shoot. this is going to be soo exciting! i used our cabinet as a backdrop since is was white. very useful for passport pictures. Ü
everything went pretty well except that i couldn't figure out what exactly was my best angle. i guess i'll just have to make do with what i've got. evidences are published below. i've already used one for my resume which i will be bringing tomorrow during my interview. if luck is on my side, i will be the next teen idol...joke joke joke! hehehe.
stepping into our room, i realized that we had no electricity. Waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!! (the scene is reminiscent of Macaulay Culkin in Home Alone.) good thing i didn't drop my towel or else my sister could've had the scare of her life. hehehe.
optimism took over me. would this keep me away from my goal? the answer is a resounding NO. i assumed my fighting stance, a roller brush on one hand and a make-up brush on the other. so what if i have no hair blower?
i tried to remember everything that my beauty gurus/masters (kat, val, carmen and pj) have taught me since i would be doing this on my own. God help me.
start with a clean face.
moisturize.
apply concealer or foundation on those unwanted spots and scars.
put blush on both cheeks for that rosy glow.
apply a little eye shadow here and there.
pluck stray hairs from the eyebrow.
curl those lashes.
apply shimmery eye shadow to the corner of the eyes for that wide-eyed look.
apply concealer or light foundation on the nose for a "matangos na ilong" effect.
presto! instant beauty queen! i'm now ready for that photo shoot.
i also prepared several "costumes" for the shoot. this is going to be soo exciting! i used our cabinet as a backdrop since is was white. very useful for passport pictures. Ü
everything went pretty well except that i couldn't figure out what exactly was my best angle. i guess i'll just have to make do with what i've got. evidences are published below. i've already used one for my resume which i will be bringing tomorrow during my interview. if luck is on my side, i will be the next teen idol...joke joke joke! hehehe.
i wish you enough
At an airport I over heard a father and daughter in their last moments together. The daughter's plane's departure had been announced and they were standing near the door when the father said to his daughter, "I love you. I wish you enough." She said, "Daddy, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Daddy." They kissed good-bye and she left. He walked over toward the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, "Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?" "Yes, I have," I replied. Saying that brought back memories I had of expressing my love and appreciation for all my dad had done for me. Recognizing that his days were limited, I took the time to tell him face-to-face how much he meant to me. So I knew what this man was experiencing. "Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?" I asked. "I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, her next trip back will be for my funeral," he said. When you were saying good-bye I heard you say, 'I wish you enough.' May I ask what that means?" He began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone." He paused for a moment, looking up, as if trying to remember it in detail and then he smiled even more. "When we said 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with enough good things to sustain them," he continued, and then turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory.
"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright."
"I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more."
"I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive."
"I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger."
"I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting."
"I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess."
"I wish you enough 'Hellos' to get you through the final Good-bye.'"
He then began to sob and walked away.
"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright."
"I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more."
"I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive."
"I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger."
"I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting."
"I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess."
"I wish you enough 'Hellos' to get you through the final Good-bye.'"
He then began to sob and walked away.
Youthpower Disaster
me and my best bud cathy at starbucks
Last friday, i convinced my bestfriend to join me in attending this youth conference at the World Trade Center. It was supposed to gather thousands of youth from all over the Philippines.The event highlights plenary sessions that will talk about the Valueof Education, Leadership, Community Development, ICT and DigitalOpportunities, Politics and Governance, Entrepreneurship, Career inMedia. Also in the conference are different academic tilt that includeinterpretative song and dance competitions, essay writing contest, modern-cultural dance Fest, debate and barkada challenge. Sounds spectacular right? unfortunately, it didn't live up to the hype. Curse those promo people! oh they were good! they convinced us to go all the way to WTC to listen to crap.
man, cathy and i laughed all through the morning! at least we were entertained. i couldn't help criticizing the speakers. poor grammar and pronounciation of words! not to mention that almost everything they said were nonsense! (ang yabang ko!) our stomachs couldn't handle it. by 11am, we rushed to the bathrooms to pass gas. we must've been the noisiest gals around. we were to ashamed to go back so we went out through the back door. what a waste of P30 parking!
not wanting to go home and be the ever productive couch potatoes that we are (we are both currently taking our much needed "vacation"), we headed to robinson's manila to window shop and watch a movie. we watched "shall we dance" featuring the full-bottomed jennifer lopez and the dashing richard gere. i cried a lot. not that its a sad movie. it just reminded me of some bad experience that happened a long, long time ago. uyy, moments! but generally, it was a great movie. i'm even inspired to really pursue those dancing lessons that i've been meaning to take. (now, where do i get the moolah? wonder if i'll get a hunk as a partner...hmmm.)
after dragging ourselves into every store which screamed "SALE!" in bold and after having a long talk on the unmentionable experience at McDo while slurping on Oreo-flavored McFlurrys, we decided to hang out at Starbucks Taft...for a change. we were running out of cash. good thing Cathy had her credit card (care of her Mommy dearest) to save us from hunger. we had a lot of time to catch-up on things...from prep up to the present.
i guess it wasn't such a disaster after all. Ü
- my sassy friends -
(back) may, andrea and brendy
*if you are wondering who the guy at the back is...its fanny serrano. joke! joke! joke!
its funny how sometimes you think the world is against you because everything did not turn out the way you want it to. but other times, life gives you little treasures to remind you that life is beautiful and that there are a lot of things you should be happy about.
its great how after starting out as blockmates belonging to the minority (our block was mainly composed of ateneans and paulinians), our group turned out to be the closest friends among all. it's almost 2 years since we graduated and here we are, still going strong.
college life wouldn't be as fun without these guys. i can never forget our gazillion experiences together. some of which are:
- "pirate" days during Comm class
- trips to Libis for lunch even if we don't have that much money to spend
- never having a hang-out place in Ateneo coz we were too cool to hang out in school (yeah right... )
- having the scariest time of my life at Malate with cross-dressers for our SA class (guys, never go to bars alone! its creepy! this guy kept insisting on putting those coasters inside my little bag. he was high on something, i can tell and smell!)
- shooting videos for Fil class (i can never forget May imitating General McArthur...bravo! what a stellar performance!)
- cutting classes to watch a movie at Sta. Lucia ( we were late for theo every time...hehehe.)
- never-ending overnights at each other's house to do projects (i think our parents are starting to have hallucinations whether they really have 6 daughters)
- late night girl talks (boys... make-up... boys... fashion... boys... love problems...boys...you know how it goes)
- make-over madness (hey, val still owes me a trip to the health and beauty section...hmm...)
well, no matter what happens to us, no matter where life leads us, we will still be ....
.....sassy forever! Ü
Beauty and the Beast
guiller and moi.
sino nga ba si beauty at sino si beast?
one of my close pals in gabay.
hahaha.
ang kulit ng kuha namin.
countdown...3rd day of uncertainty
i miss my desk! i miss my work! i miss all the chaos!
please remind me why i resigned...can't seem to remember...
oh yeah. work was stressful. i hate my boss. it was hell.
btw, did i tell you? the gates of hell are black and they're made of metal...just in case you were wondering.
but still, i miss all of it.
NLG reunion
L-R: adnan, me, ava, kamille, and mackie (not in picture, cameraman kse)
went to ateneo to have a tarp printed. silakbo people lost our organization's tarp panel. boo! at least there's a reason for me to visit my alma mater. met up with close friends and ate at my favorite place...Manangs! can't get enough of that famous inihaw with super garlic suka! yummy! mukhasim sa sarap!
A day of imitating the YM smileys
beee!
Souvenir shot at gabay room. huhuhu. my home for 3 yrs will now be vanished from the face of the earth. if i could only save it through demonstrating my prowess as a face contortionist (if there is such a thing), i would.
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