bangkok mode

yey! alis na kami later for bangkok! i'm so excited. hehehe. sana hindi naman maubos ang pera ko sa kakashop at sana marami akong mavisit na places. haha. i'm so clueless. hindi man lang ako nagresearch. hehe. anyway, since hindi naman ako makawork, magreresearch na lang muna ako. hehe.

see you guys sa january! Ü

mewi twismas!

i'm greeting everyone in advance since i won't be blogging for about a week!

i'll be going to isabela tonight. then bangkok after i get back! yipee! it'll be hectic but it's all good! hehehe.

see you guys next year! ÜÜÜ

ugly me!!!

huhuhu. ampanget kooooooooo!!!!!!!!! ayoko ng ganitoooooooooooo!!!!!!!!

sabi ng friend ko ang PANGIT daw ng mata ko. huhuhu. sabi rin ng mga officemates ko. nakakaasar!!! this is the worst time to be utterly ugly!!! kung kelan pa maraming reunion at parties. syetttt na malagkeeeeettttttt!!!!!!!

bakit ngayon pa?!? why oh why?! pagkatapos ko magpa-hair makeover, ganito ang mangyayari. hay. i hate this. it sucks.

kingkong-an

dapat manunuod kaming mga gabay peeps ng kingkong. kaso ang traffic e. hahaha. umalis kami ni chi ng around 7 sa office. tapos pumunta ng greenbelt. grabe. walang parking!!! more than an hour ata kami naglilibot. nakita pa namin si yeg. haha. akala niya kukunin namin ang parking slot niya. hahaha.

anyway, after a very long time, naisip kong magpark na lang sa dela rosa para sure na may parking. kasi mga tamad ang tao e. haha. as expected, marami pa ngang parking slots available. ayun, lakad kami ni chi from walkway to tokyo tokyo sa glorietta kung san andun sila mike, kaye, ate kams, pitt at gee. dahil nga late na kami nakarating, hindi na kami umabot sa 8pm screening. kumain na lang kami sa food choices. ako, si pitt, gee at chi. humabol din pala si miggy. hehe.

although medyo sad ako, kse importanteng date dapat kahapon, masaya na rin kasi nakita ko ang iba sa mga importanteng taong nakilala ko at nagkaron ng malaking epekto sa buhay ko, bago matapos ang taon.

salamat sa inyo! you made 2005 one hell of a year for me! *hugs everybody*

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dear santa,

gusto ko lang magpasalamat sa mga gift na natanggap ko this year. hindi ko na ieenumerate lahat pero sobrang happy ako. maraming taong nakaalala sa akin. sana bless mo sila. thank you!

love,
me

ps... o sige, bless mo na rin kahit yun na ring mga taong nakaalala lang at walang regalo sa akin. pero remind mo rin sila na hindi naman nagsasara ang pinto ko for late gifts. hehe. tumatanggap din ako ng cash at gift check. hehe.

hey santa!

haven't i been good this year?

ang lungkot naman ng pasko. to date, i think this will be my saddest christmas ever. i'm in no mood for gift-giving or just plain being merry. even shopping isn't THAT enjoyable.

ang sama. i know i have a lot of blessings to be thankful for this year pero ganito ako. i want to focus on things that i should be happy about, like my upcoming trip to bangkok but i can't help feeling blue. late pa ako sa mass kanina. nyar! kaasar.

ganito ba talaga kapag tumatanda? i'm starting to dread all holidays and special occasions.

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dear santa,

magwiwish na ako for next year. para talagang maprepare mo maaga pa lang at makahanap ka ng alternative kung kinakailangan. sana this time makakilala naman ako ng taong hindi ako sasaktan. please? i promise to be nice. talaga! i will keep my promise. o kaya kung gusto mo, spank mo na lang ako kapag naging naughty ako. instead na ganito yung nararamdaman ko.

please? thank you! Ü

love,
me

closing cycles by paulo coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.

Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?

You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it maybe!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the ideal moment. Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person. Nothing is irreplaceable. A habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the> record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

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I am closing yet another chapter in my life. I know I have to do this for all of us. Oh God, please give me strength.

of chocolate polvorons and kili-kilis

discussion during breakfast today...

tin: ma, ano yan? (pointing to the small box on the table)
ma: ewan ko. tingnan mo. (removing the gift tag) basta, tag-iisa kayo kasi anim lang ito.
me: kanino galing?
ma: ewan ko sa daddy mo. (glancing over the tag)
tin: hula ko polvoron laman niyan. kse nakakita ako sa bazaar e. kaso slightly different. (getting one milk chocolate covered polvoron)
charlie: (as if having a eureka! moment while munching on the honey cake) Alam ko na! yung pagpili ng polvoron based sa kili-kili! kung maitim e di yun dark chocolate. kung maputi e di yung white!

(ma, tin and i laugh in unison)

tin: o sige, sayo yung white!
charlie: hinde. hindi na lang ako kakain. (while looking at ma)
ma: o bakit? sige, maitim kili-kili ko kaya akin yung dark! (chuckling)

(i sat quietly, reflecting on whether i am entitled to the white chocolate or the dark chocolate covered polvoron)

hay naku! kids say the darnest things!

para sa iyo

Love means to love that which is unlovable,or it is no virtue at all;
forgiving means to pardon the unpardonable,or it is no virtue at all;
faith means believing the unbelievable,or it is no virtue at all;
And to hope means hoping when things are hopeless,or it is no virtue at all....

-G.K. Chesterton.

sabi ko nga sa'yo...hindi kailangan ng rason.

gulat ka?

God never fails to amaze me.

hindi ko talaga naisip na kaya kong gawin ito.

thank you. for showing me that i can.

naniniwala pa rin ako na magiging ok ang lahat sa tamang panahon.



...na magkakaroon din ako ng happy ending. Ü

sabi nga sa love radio

it hurts!

it hurts you know!?!

:(

hindi ko alam kung pano ko ihahandle ito.

can i trust you? how can you keep this from me?

please try to be honest with me.

i am trying my best to be patient and to understand you.

make me over!

yes! may new look ako! i had my hair lightened and cut plus i now have highlights! thanks to my very generous and hip boss. buong team may new look! cool talaga si ms ja! best boss ever! buti na lang nakalibre ako. worth 3k din ang aking new 'do. haha. never in my entire life ako gagastos ng ganito just for vanity's sake, except maybe sa kasal ko. wahaha!

new learnings...
  1. it hurts! so bad. huhuhu.
  2. my hair reeks of chemicals! even after so many washings and tons of conditioners, i still smell fresh-from-the-parlor! eww...
  3. totoo ang sinasabi sa commercial ng shampoo..."baka nakapangasawa ng mayaman!"
  4. having your hair lightened can make your skin appear lighter.
  5. hindi lahat ng nagpapakulay ng buhok...jologs?!?! (sige na nga, i included this so i won't have to be embarrased)

yes!!! wet look!

sadako in the making!

this is the way to cut your hair, cut your hair...

obviously, there are better uses for plastic...

the "un" willing victims

new friends


this was taken before watching chicken little, right after lunch at giligan's. haha. hindi kita lahat. kulang ang flash ng camera kaya maitim ang mga nasa likod. sowri. hindi kita ang kagwapuhan at kagandahan ng mga tao. next time, close-up shot naman.

gusto ko mag-update!

kaso walang time. este, di pwede. haha. naka-block na kasi sa server. di ako makapag-upload ng pics. dami ko pa naman ikwekwento. hahaha.

abangan na lang next week. promise. marami 'to. hehe.

na naman?!

bakit laging may uncertainty? nakakaasar talaga.

ayoko ng ganitooooooo!!!!

bakit lagi na lang complicated? hindi ba pwedeng maging simple ang buhay? hindi ba pwedeng 2 lang ang pagpilian. yes or no. black or white. pera o bayong.

pero sa bagay. mas maganda kung may gray areas. kung may rainbow.

ang labo ko ngayon. sorry. sabog ako.

twilight zone

am i in a parallel universe?

i didn't expect that i would be this awkward. hahaha. staying over at a blockmate's condo but hanging out with his brother or being in the same group with a cousin's cousin.

it really is a small world after all!

go forth and multiply!

Juliana
a new addition to the Reyes-Guinto clan. sabi ko na nga ba at kumakalat na ang magandang lahi namin e. wehehe!

the early bird...has eyebags!

its ironic. ang aga ko pumasok today hoping maabutan ang isang tao na maaga rin umuwi. hahaha. oh well...

its amusing. kse lahat ng officemate ko nagcomment dahil ang aga-aga ko ngayon. hahaha. syet. wala pang 8 nasa office nako. haha. bagong buhay ito. epekto raw ba ng... nyahaha! ewan ko lang.

its sad. sa sat ko pa makikita si kat. or baka sunday na kse marami akong lakad sa sat at baka hindi kami mag-abot! huhuhu. i miss kat!

anyway, marami akong dapat matapos today...yeeeessss! plus i have to leave work early kse death anniv ni tatay zaro (dad ni mommy) at may sort of reunion dinner dahil may balikbayan na dumating. namiss ko lang magblog. Ü

calling cards

yeeessssss! may calling cards nako. kaso palpak naman. mali ang middle initial ko at mali rin ang huling number ng mobile phone ko. anu ba yun?!

pero ok lang. in 3 months papalitan din naman ulit. hahaha! for now, magtitiyaga na lang akong isa-isahing baguhin ang nakasulat. gravy!