Between a rock and a hard place

after going to a party yesterday, my mother and i discussed my "behavior" during the party. the conversation goes like this...

ma: (while brushing her teeth) hindi nyo man lang sinama si _____ sa usapan nyo...

me: eh hindi naman sya makaka-relate. (with matching rolling eyes)

ma: lalo pa yun. nagtatawanan kayo.

me: (exasperated) ok ok.

ma: sinasabi ko sa iyo kasi ganun din nararamdaman ko kapag kasama ko yung mga kaibigan ng daddy nyo. lalo na yun. nag-iilokano sila. di man lang nila naisip na hindi ko naiintindihan.

me: (rolling eyes and just shutting up)


i've been there before. too many times in fact. out-of-place i mean. everybody does! once in a while.

it just pisses me off. why do i have to be the sensitive one all the time? is it my burden to take care of the outcasts, the losers, the ones that can't relate? i am tired. tired of trying to do good all the time. it is frustrating. it's like that Safeguard soap conscience bugging you all day. i swear i keep hearing voices. i must be going crazy.

although it is not entirely their fault that they seem out-of-place, because sometimes people can be really obnoxious and cruel and would intentionally exclude you from their conversations, it does not mean that you will just sit in one corner and be a loser by just accepting the situation. you always have a choice.

yes. people have to be sensitive to other people but you can't expect everybody to do that. some people don't care. i suggest, you take matters into your own hands. haha. be pro-active! stop pitying yourself and do something! (LSS from watching Britney videos!)